11/16/08

So ten days til my birthday. That should make me all yippee but right now I'm cranky... I have a bad head cold. My nose wont stop running. My head hurts. My ears are popped. My eye balls feel funny. And when i want to sneeze I cant but when i don't want to i do. I fell asleep at 3 am because i just couldn't sleep and i woke up at 9 because of a bad dream. and couldn't go back to sleep. Then i tried to call Gabe and hes been busy for about 5 hours and after i woke up from that really bad nightmare and all i wanted to do was talk he couldn't give me one damn minute when i needed some one to talk to. So i called my mom. Its just been a really sucky day. I'm just aggravated and since about 2 am last night my nose has been so super raw that my eyes sometimes water because of it. i even took a super long shower and i don't feel any better. Medicines not helping. to look half decent tomorrow i going to have to pull out the foundation. Yuck. That describes how I feel. One good thing is that my dad actually stood up and was a man and actually sent me the money he promised. And if you know my dad that's a big thing. Last year he didn't get me a birthday present which was my sweet sixteen. And he didn't get me a Christmas present when i was the bigger person and got him one. I guess our relationship is a little better now but he keeps trying to pressure me in to coming down and spending a weekend with him. but I don't know if I'm ready for that. The only thing good about that would be that Id see my best friend in the entire world Stephanie and the people he lives with has a four wheeler. I mean it'd be OK seeing him but if something went wrong and we fought again id have no where to go ya know what i mean? Im so tired and i feel crappy but im looking forward to my birthday. I get to spend a great day with my baby then go out to dinner then see twilight =D. Im getting a cheese cake for my birthday cake =] Im cant wait=]. Only ten days but then its less that a month to figure out how to pull money outta my ass for christmas presents. Thats gonna be crazy hard since i have to pay for hawaii too. I feel like im ranting on and on but its a good way to get out all my feelings with out risking loseing my voice. So i have a line from a s ong but dont tell gabe he'll kick my butt =] "You PMS like a bitch I wouild know" hehehehee. thats what im thinking about him right now but so do i so its all good. I love him to death but id pick on a flower thats what kind of mood im in. I wonder if any one will even read this because of the length? Well Steph if you do heres my mesage for you. I love you and miss you. You are my elmo kisses. Ms.Laura if your reading this ily too bby. Friday was that IPS teaching thing it made my mind up. Im deffenatly going to be a teacher. I cant wait. Well Toodles.