Ugh so ...

I just dont know what to think. Me and gabe finally desided there will be no more trys. He just wants to friends. I dont know if i can even do that. but he was the biggest thing in my life for over two years. like how do i let go of that? how do i not think about that? Im finally getting a little better but i just dont know. Im tired of being alone. i want to find some one interesting, some one exciting, someone new. I just want love.