Samhain

Colorful leaves falling from the maple trees onto the earth leaving a vibrant blanket of colors. Carved pumpkins on every corner, smiling whimsically among the hustle and bustle of everyday life. I love this time of year. I prepared for samhain today,gathering together apples, my cinnamon broom, gold candles, and my onyx crystal. I cooked a feast filled with hues of gold, orange, red, and brown, for my family.
That night, as I looked up to the moon, I felt a mystic connection, that I would later find out was Isabella Rain, a fellow Pagan sister, whom said she felt me call for her. This witches new year was very important to me because I just got out of a long time relationship that ended badly, and It was time to let go. To symbolize the rebirth by death, that is the new year, I built up fire under the stars, and let the flames roar.This year I pulled out a cardboard box that had old memories from my relationship, and I let the memories burn so I could have new ones. I burned leters, pictures, and roses. The feeling was amazing just to let go, and I wont lie I cried. To just feel so connected to the goddess, and let all the wieght lift off my shoulders, it was just overwhelming. The flickering flames lifted the nefgitivity from my life, and into the starry night sky. I must have spent hours out side just watching the ashes from the fire fly into the sky like little fairies ready to cause mischief.

Woo Hoo

Im super excited about this week !

Ill go in order

So the first thing coming up is Gabes one year being back from juvie, which excites me because we've made it through so much. And when i think about it, the whole thing brings me back to earth. I remember how much i missed him and it makes me realize that i need him forever.

Next is gabes birthday. He'll finally be seventeen! So until then im going to hound him about how is is younger than me. I love that butt head. Im going to do the best i can for him, because he made my birthday amazing. If any one has quick ideas about things i could do let me know.

Then is The big Valentines Day. He is taking me to Apple bees then we are going to rent some movies and come to my house and watch them. Then he'll Stay the night and spend all day sunday with me. Once again any cute vday ideas let me kno!

The Monday morning my mom, my sister, gabe and me are all going to disney world! Woohoo! I cant wait im super duper excited! Then we are staying at hotel and coming back in the middle of tuesday !

Disney,Bangs,Jealousy,and Lala

So totally lots and lots of stuff coming up.

Next Thursday is gabes birthday and im going to his house and imma bake him cookies

shhhh dont tell!!!!!!!!

Then next saturday is vday =] and he is going to take me out yummmm

then the monday after that im going to Disney world with gabe, my mom and my sister =]

So other that that soon all my hawaii is going to be paid for im looking really forward to that ! I already got a bikini for hawaiii Its pink and Black!!!

And me and gabe are doing desent but now he is jealous of a fresman which i think is super funny. But i love the butt head so what ever !

Oh and i looked at my hair today and its gross! I need a trim and I dont know what to do with my bangs? Any ideas? I was thinking about letting them grow out but i want something different? Ideas pleaseeee!

Oh and Mrs. Lala(laura) I loves you and i want you to know you are becomeing one of my best friends i love you more than yo know =D

Males, jobs, and Frustration

So a couple things to go over here.

One Gabriel got a job! Yippee! That's super cool. He'll work on Saturday's, and make about 2oo dollars a month. That's great but he's already talking about buying a 250 dollar tool kit which I think is slightly stupid. Car or tool kit? Hmm so hard I don't know what to pick gag puhlease. But that's what i get for being with a mechanic... Males. What a strange race of human beings, maybe we should observe them and take notes.
Two, Exams. Ewww i know. I think i did good at the third block exam and the only one i have left is first block. I don't have a second or fourth one because i did Junior achievement and came to an after school practice.
Third, I need a job. Gabriel got one because of his mechanics but I don't have any thing like that. Sighhh. I need to look up the applications. Grr.
Fourth, Gabriel is being so mean. I mean i love him to death but he was mean. I feel like I try to be nice and I'm trying extra hard to be there for him and all that but he doesn't appreciate any of it. I put a video up on my myspace about us and he was a brat and could only say something about how i put up a picture of his butt. What ever! Hes a butt head! That is ridiculous. I want him to appreciate every thing I'm trying. And on top of that i told him to look up tools online and he yelled at me. Bleh! Whatever.

I'm Tired , I'm Going To Go Bye-Bye

Just because i havent been on in a while

i love gabriel . I want to be a better girl friend to him. Sometimes i feel like i havent been the best girl friend i can be. he deserves the best . He really does i hope he gets that i love him more than he could ever know. I love him so much...

Twilight comes to dvd on march 21...!