10/17/08

We walk down the brightly lit road, and I can't help but cover my eyes because of the sun in my eyes. I was in a bad mood, I wasn't before the day went so well gabriel and I hadn't fought. Actually we were all over each other like in the begining. Then on that stupid road with the stupid sun in my eyes I guess I pushed his final button. I don't remember what I said but if I could take it back I would. He threw the stop watch (we were timing the time we walked for my online course), and stormed into the woods. I picked it up and looked at the shattered glass that used to be the screen. I tried to get him to talk tome but he sat on the side of the road hidden in the brush crying. I asked him to stop. I tried to grab his hand, but he snatched it away. I got mad and threw that stop watch at him, but missed. I never was one for sports. I begged him to come with me and come home so we could talk. My mom would be waiting for us. But he wouldn't get up he wouldn't stop crying. You may think this makes him a baby but it doesn't. I know he loves me, and weve been having issues, which hurts considering we've already been through so much together. But back to us. He would'nt stop crying. I asked him if he still wanted to be with me he didn't answer. It hurt. I asked again with my voice a little higher. He still didn't answer. That hurt even more. So much was going through my head. But the one dominant thought was that no matte if he still wanted to be with me or not I still was going to be his friend that no matter what I'd still love him, which to me proves our love. After another ten minutes of coaxing him. He stood up, but he still wouldn't answer if he wanted to be with me. It hurt lots. When we arrived at my home I asked him one last time, and he finally answered me. Yes. Thats when The strangest thing happened I let my self cry to the fulest force. They tearsflowed and I held him but he didn't hold me back. Then I knew it. I hurt him more than I ever had before which in turn hurts me. It took all night but we did smile and laugh and held each other but I still hurt a little knowing that I let it get as far as I did it was unfair to both of us.