Dad....

So yesterday not so cool. I miss my dad as much as that hurts me to admit, i do. I don't know why. He never treated me like he really cared any way , and now all of the sudden he wants to be some huge part of my life? I can't jump in like that he hurt me, bad. Hes the only man who has ever really broken my heart. I wish I could just toss him to the side llike a ragety ann doll, but Ive tried that and damn hes like an electronic doll, clawing at my heart trying to push its way back in. He's my dad though , and I feel as if maybe its time to try to let him in. But thats gonna take a lot of effort on my part. I think Im going to start by copying my report cards as I get them and send them to him, Some pictures maybe, and a letter that im working on. Any ideas? Oh well The bells about to ring So im off to English, and to meet my baby Toodles!