Over anyalzing and thinking too much.

So this blog is more like a space for me to release rather than some silly story about a time with fun and friends. Most of yoall know me well enough to know i think way to much, and over-analyze everything. Im terrified. Straight up. All of you know what happened betweeen gabe and me. It was heart breaking. Im scared to get too close. I dont want anyone to have that power over me like he did, and in a way that has handicapped my trusting ability, but I liked it that way. I liked not letting any boy in. I liked not having the chance of being hurt again. But something has changed. Vincent came back into my life. I like him... alot. Everything about him. His respect. His bad boy attitude. The way he doesnt care what people think of him. the way he listens to me and made me feel important and special. And i got all of this in like a week. I havent seen this boy since six grade. But I like the way I feel around him. But im so scared. My heart thumps hard when im around him. I feel so good about us, and that scares me. I know hes just as scared as I am, he just got out of a realationship too. But yhe is handling it didfferent than I am, he is guarding him self. I on the other hand, am falling. I havent told him im falling yet, i told him im scared of falling, and he said he'd catch me when i trip. But Vince is a smart kid, he probably has read it right off of my face. I like being around him so much I kinda just want to let go and stop being scared, but I cant do that. I cant risk that quite yet. I trust him, I really do Im just so scared. I feel like a fool for letting myself start to fall so quickly, you think Id learn from my mistakes but at the same time, you cant live your life reserved. Sometimes you have to close you eyes and take a leap of faith. But because he is guard, I DO NOT under any circumstances want to take that leap alone. So I will wait, I think hes worth it :). I understand almost everything hes going through and the stuff I dont understand Im trying to understand and im being supportive. I have spent the last few days thinking about this stuff, and Ive tried to explain some of it to him. Im trying to figure all this out. But my plan is to go with the flow, appriciate him, and try and make him happy.